Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Frum Married, and Gay

Never knew how great guys meat tastes
Never going back to women

MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men,boys, and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

Thursday, January 16, 2014

I am looking for other frum gay married men in Chicago who want to meet up.

I am married but don't have a real job. I am free to hook up anytime during the day time hours while my wife is at work. Send me an email if you would like to talk. I live in West rogers park and would like a man close to home. i am willing to meet up in Peterson park and Skokie as well.

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

I am looking for other frum gay men in chicago

Frum Married gay Chicago



MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them. The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others. I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Purim Chicago Gay Pride

Purim . what can I say more than seeing everyone dressed up is a pleasure
MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Frum Gay Married Orthodox Jewsih Gay Marriage shim Chicago, Frum, Gay, Gay Marriage, Marriage, Married, Orthdox Frum Gay Married Jewish Gay Marriage, Orthodox, West Rogers Park

MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

shumel

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Friday, January 4, 2013

Frum Gay Married Orthodox Jewsih Gay Marriage

I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

shumel


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Tuesday, November 13, 2012

slave to my boyfriend

Did some role playing today. My boyfriend was my master and I  was his slave, what a rush.


MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Sunday, November 11, 2012

Butt on fire, need advice


My butt really hurts. Snuck away from the wife and kids to meet up with my new boyfriend.  What I did not know was that today I would be on the receiving end . I am finding it difficult to sit down, does anyone have any advice to take away the pain from being stuffed by a large man. Even sitting in my escalades  cushioned air conditioned seat wont cool the fire I feel  


MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Sunday, October 21, 2012

50 Shades of gay

Up to 25 shades of gay in the last month. Goal is to act out all of it and then write my own book 50 shades of gay, or make a song about it.  My niples still hurt ;)

MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Monday, October 15, 2012

Gay day at the Mikva

Yom Kippur was great!! Cannot wait till next year for my once a year treat of seeing everyone at the mikvah. It is nice to see people have grown over the year :)


Orthodox, Frum, Married, Gay, Day at The Mikvah

MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Friday, September 28, 2012

Frum Married gay Chicago

MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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Sunday, September 9, 2012

Guys Taste Great

Never knew how great guys meat tastes
Never going back to women

MY STORY OF WHY I AM GAY
Recently someone whom I know well from the chicago community came out that he was gay. Him having the strength to let people know and not being afraid of the backlash has given me the strength to talk about something I have held inside for far to long. I do not have the courage to put my name out there at this time as I have not yet told my wife, family, and the people who are close to me. I do however have a burning need to post my story to give other people strength and to realize if you have these same feelings you are not alone. Similar to the other person I have been fighting these feeling for years and have recently started acting out on them.  The last few years I have been chatting and trading pictures with other men to satisfy the love and needs I have that my wife simply can not fulfill as I am not attracted to her in the slightest bit. I am blessed that I have a lot of free time but that has also been a curse with me having so much free time to fulfill my fantasies with no one realizing how many hours a day I spend  in gay chat rooms chatting, texting, and viewing gay porn. I have always been attracted to men,boys, and thought by getting married it would push these feeling aside which it did for the first few years. I am now married 15+ years and the feelings towards men are stronger then ever. I find that I have a hard time davening  as I am constantly checking out the other men and how great they look. I go to the mikva all the time hoping that I will see 1 of these men that I have a crush on. I have even touched some of them over the years in a playful way with out them realizing what I was doing. what I have really been doing is touching them for my own satisfaction. Over the years I have grabbed men asses when I just could not resist and then laughed it off, some have even said Shmuel stop acting gay, the joke is now on them as I have been gay and not just acting. I know it says in the torah the way I feel is wrong but things are different in world today and being gay is no longer something the should be hidden just because I am orthodox. Gay people should have the same rights as others.  I am very wealthy and give a lot to charity we will see if these same people will still talk highly of me and ask for my money once I come out.

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